Motherhood

• Self love and motherhood musings - Since my last little episode, I’ve recovered quite nicely. Relatively speaking of course.  I’ve taken a few showers. Yesterday I even made myself breakfast. Boom.     Caring for myself is so much effort when I’m depressed. Sometimes loving myself is one of the most difficult things to manage to do. I think it’s rooted …
• Validating my Bipolar Disorder - Yesterday I posted, on Instagram, a photo of myself, without makeup (Thank you Alicia Keys). The picture’s caption read: How i feel. ‪#‎downday‬‪#‎mentalhealth‬‪#‎mentalillness‬‪#‎bipolardisorder‬‪#‎manicdepression‬‪#‎stillinmypajamas‬ Being honest. Living out there in the open. I’ve been living out there in the “open” with my diagnosis for a few years now. It hasn’t been easy. Yes I have been …
• Bipolar Awareness Day Talk hosted by SADAG & Akeso - Hello there!  The South African Depression and Anxiety Group (SADAG) held talks all over South Africa in celebration of Bipolar Awareness day held on the 26th May. I was asked to give a talk based on my life experience, living with the disorder. The talk was hosted by SADAG as well Akeso Kenilworth clinic in …
• That feeling when your toddler pees straight into the potty! - Can I get a yay? or even a middle class whoop whoop? WHOOP WHOOP! I woke up at 9 am today, I lie, read that as 11:30 am. My husband had a work function last night and so I had to delay taking my tablets. That just means me having half a day to do …
• Today I wish away - Today was one of those days one would want to just shoo away. You know, stomp your foot as if to scare off like it were a dirty, heavy, lazy fly. I woke up with children in my bed- two of them in fact. I haven’t been sleeping well for the past few nights as …
• School is IN and blogging is OUT - Phew! What a hectic past few weeks I’ve had. But I’m not going to complain much. I’m kidding. I haven’t been blogging due to my mom commitments as well as the writing schedule I made for myself. Cayden started his new school term three weeks ago. I’ve also been getting my ass in gear for …
• The pains and griefs of Motherhood- mentally ill or otherwise - I wrote this to my close friend, Dyane Harwood, a little while ago. We usually cheer one another on (we are both writers and need positive reinforcement regularly) but this ventlike email to her followed my depression episode. It came like a thick fog out of nowhere. It came at the time my family needed a totally sane and organised person to handle our big move to a new town. But I failed.
• Happy Birthday Gabriel!!! Republishing of Gabriel’s story - http://wp.me/p1Wt53-jm It’s Gabriel’s birthday today! He is a 1 year old angel from the heavens above.  Thank you God for blessing us with a healthy child that brings us smiles everyday.  You brought him into this world, very much on the traumatic side,  but we see him as a gift. He’s so friendly,  loving and …
• What does depression feel like? - I’m not sure if what I’m going through is a mixed episode. I sent my psych a message and she hasn’t responded. I think I should be fed to the dogs. People, people don’t get me wrong. This isn’t (it might be) a cry for help. The last time I felt this low was when …
• THAT call to the psychiatrist - As you can see in my previous blog post, two days leading up to the mentioned birthday party I arranged for my sister, I planned everything, cooked all the food, painted the owls in the babies’ room (because I didn’t want people to think I do nothing at home), I forced, I mean SUGESSTED, my hubby put up …