It’s been really difficult to update my status or answer q’s as to if I’m doing okay. This, especially since I am in the clinic the Easter weekend. I thought I was well enough to leave. 😦 so I’ll need to stay till next Tuesday.
This is a new low. I tried to sleepisode (sleep it iff episode)it off. It worked, kind off. Maybe it didn’t.
“I can’t do it.”
Those are words still lingering inside me.
And I know there a root to it all. A trigger to the gun which kills everyone I love, one by one.
Ideas are meaningless if you are stuck in a psychiatric facility, promises even moreso.
So, I promise I’ll be out soon, but hoping I’d be loved today for my honesty in saying, “I hold the gun.”