I’m fat because…

I decided to take time out to write this post mainly because I’ve posted many pics on FB recently and those who haven’t seen me in a while are shocked to see that I’ve gained so much weight. Okay, I was also shocked to see how big I’ve ‘grown’. Most of you will know when you start gaining weight and the clothes feel tighter and tighter around the waist, it’s still bearable. Worrying, but bearable. But once you start having to go shopping for a whole new wardrobe because nothing fits, it’s not longer funny, nor can you bear the looks you get and comments you receive about your pregnancy glow when you’re not really pregnant. (That’s really not flattering at all).

Those who know me, know that I love to stand out in the crowd, i love loud colours, eye catching jewellry and my afro is done in funky style or I have a flower to catch you attention. So, why would i still want to catch your attention when I’m this big? Surely my sheer presence is big enough to do that? Like I told my hubby yesterday, I’m still Yvette, I may be fat right now, but FAT is not my name. I’ll wear that leopard print pants, even if it’s XL. There’ll be more spots for your to choose from. I’ll wear those bright technicolour tops, if I want to. I loving sharing my low neck line tops with the world because with an added bonus, fat increase the chest action. I do get pissed off sometimes when that size 16 skinny jean jeggings crap won’t fit, and sometimes after putting those sculpting pants on- who wouldn’t? But I appreciate that this body gave life, and it’s mine. I have strecthmarks for days, but those marks are witness to the magic of my little miracles.

So, I’m fat because I’m on Lithium and Seroquel (to treat Bipolar type 1), both known for the weight gaining effects. I’m not blaming my meds, but rather giving them credit where it’s due 😉 I do need to take steps to counter those effects, I realize that, and I will this year. I’m aware of it, thank you. Also, the lithium started tampering with my thyroid, so now I have a sluggish thyroid, which doesn’t help in the weight dept., either. I’m going to give banting a go this year, a serious attempt that is, so that I’ll feel more in control of my weight issues. We’ll see how it goes. I’m not going to make huge promises and goals, I’m going to take it as it comes (and goes).

So I’m fat because of medical reasons. but not solely because of that. I do feel great though. I’m at stage of my life where I’m comfortable with saying the f-word, for fat’s sake. I’m empowered because I won’t let a couple of extra kg’s get in the way of a really great life.

Cheers to size L, XL, XXL, etc.

Hello 2015, Hello size M!!!!

xoxo

Mrs H

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